danger. high voltage.

okay, i’ve been wanting to blog about this since i read it on the train this morning, but honestly it’s hard.  because every time i start typing and thinking about it, i get fucking angry.

Canada abortion debate rekindled as bill passes

i am actually mad as fucking hell.  fuck you conservative government and FUCK YOU to everyone that voted those ass clowns into power.

here’s the thing.  if i vote liberal, or ndp or green party or whatever, i’m not placing a vote that potentially takes away the rights and freedoms of other people in the country. 

the conservatives (and other right wing parties) are not in favour of equal rights for all citizens (they don’t want to give gays equal rights) and if they could, they’d go back in time and reopen the abortion debate. 

i don’t even know what to say… i’m just so fucking mad.  i like to think that canada is beyond this fucking bullshit, but apparently we’re not.  the fact that people in this country are voting for a party that doesn’t support equal rights and would take away a woman’s right to choose is archaic.  and the fact that is party is in power blows my fucking mind some days.  and today is certainly one of them. 

i actually feel like my head might explode thinking about it. 

if you personally believe that there’s a giant father figure in the sky staring down at you, and that gays are less of human beings and deserve to be treated as second class citizens and that women that choose abortions are murderers, then good for you.  but HOW DARE YOU impose those beliefs on others.  FUCK YOU. 

how dare you take away my decision to form my own opinions and live my my own beliefs.  i must be a fucking terrible human for thinking that gays deserve the same rights and freedoms that straight people do.  i must be totally out to fucking lunch for believing that a woman has the right to choose if having a baby is really the best decision for her in her circumstances. 

here’s the fucking thing.  i’ve had an abortion.  i had one when i was 18.  and you know what?  IT WAS PROBABLY THE BEST FUCKING DECISION I EVER MADE.  and i will never regret it.  the problem wasn’t the guy i was with… he was wonderful and very much wanted to get married and have a baby… the problem wasn’t that i had no money or hadn’t graduated… i had a job and was accepted to college.  the problem was that i didn’t fucking want a baby at 18.  holy shit, when i think about it now, it blows my mind.  i could have had a 10 year old kid by now.  and it would have taken my life down a totally different path.  i wouldn’t have gone to college, i wouldn’t have had a career and i certainly wouldn’t be in the position i am today.  i made a tough decision that was absolutely the best decision for not only me personally, but also for society as a whole.  instead of being a minimum wage earning, or maybe even welfare collector, i’m a productive tax paying homeowner. 

the idea that another girl, in the same position as me wouldn’t be free to make the same decision for herself concerns me greatly.  mostly because these decisions are usually being made by men.  and i’m going to be honest, if you don’t have the ability to carry a child, i don’t think you have any right to vote or pass laws that concern the carrying of one.  i’ve had this argument a million times, and i see what guys say when they tell me why they disagree, but i won’t change my mind.  at the end of the day, no matter how think you feel about pregnancy and abortion, it’s something you will NEVER experience. 

not even to mention that the right to choose is a fucking CHOICE.  if you’re anti-abortion then great.  don’t fucking get one.  make personal decisions for yourself as you see fit, but DO NOT make them for other people.  you don’t know someone else’s situation… there is not ONE answer for all of society’s problems.  you have to give people the tools to take care of themselves and then let them make their own decisions. 

anyways, i’m fucking mad.  clearly.  and i know i’ve gone off on a tangent to the extreme, but fuck. 

okay, one last thing i want to throw down is from freaknomics.  great book.  highly recommended.  there’s a whole chapter about how when abortion is legalized in a country, they experience a sharp decline in crime 20 years after the fact.  because unwanted children, or “accidental babies” to unprepared parents often end up in a life of crime.  not only is the right to choose better for a woman, it benefits society as a whole. 

bah.  alright.  i think i got it all out.  and i have total deju.  have i blogged this before?  maybe.  actually it’s highly possible, lol.  this is one of my top 3 hot button issues.